A Great Shame that You Have to Know


His name is Hadi Sutrisno, and we called him Uncle Tris. He was classified as old age, approximately 65 years old, but he was still productive. Besides taking care of one’s own garden, Uncle Tris also raise cattle.

When the rest of the villagers had to evacuate on November 5, 2010 early in the morning because of the eruption of Mount Merapi, Uncle Tris also displaced. There is a sense of togetherness when in barracks alongside other villagers.

In the following days, almost every refugee hit by burnout and wanted to go home. When asked why, the general answer is obtained we have to take care of the garden or livestock. I did some investigating and discovered that the words of Uncle Tris is the real answer. Uncle Tris embarrassed become refugees because it was inconvenient and dependent on others. He said “urip ning barak ki rasane ming koyo nyandong (stayed in the barracks seemed to live not independent)”.

Uncle Tris very likely represent the other refugees, that shyness does not make them uncomfortable in the barracks. Shame that had a remarkable effect for civilization called it a self-esteem.

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Rasa Malu itu lho….

Namanya Hadi Sutrisno, kami memanggilnya lik Tris. Usianya tergolong sudah lanjut, kurang lebih 65 tahun. Akan tetapi dalam usianya tersebut beliau masih produktif. Selain mengurus kebun milik sendiri, lik Tris juga memelihara sapi.

Ketika dusun kami harus dikosongkan pada tanggal 5 Nopember 2010 dini hari karena letusan gunung merapi, lik Tris juga ikut mengungsi. Ada rasa kebersamaan ketika berada di barak pengungsian bersama warga lain (sedusun maupun lain dusun).

Hari-hari selanjutnya hampir setiap pengungsi dilanda kejenuhan dan ingin segera pulang. Jika ditanya kenapa, maka jawaban umum yang didapat adalah kami harus mengurus kebun/ternak. Usut punya usut, ternyata celetukan lik Tris adalah jawaban yang sebenarnya. Lik Tris merasa malu menjadi pengungsi – karena merasa merepotkan dan tergantung pada orang lain. Katanya urip neng barak ki rasane koyo ming nyadong (tinggal di barak itu serasa hidup tidak mandiri)”.

Lik Tris sangat mungkin mewakili para pengungsi lain, bahwa rasa malu itu tak membuat mereka nyaman di barak. Rasa malu yang memiliki efek luar biasa, karena peradapan menyebutnya sebagai sebuah harga diri…..

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